The First Blog Post

Have you ever found yourself in a place in your life where you feel like you are trudging through mud? I have found myself there for the past year, not really certain of when or where the issue came about, what brought it on, and quite honestly - I have had NO idea how to work myself out of it.

While reading my current personal development book, Adventures for your Soul by Shannon Kaiser, I was reminded that "Things don't happen to me, they happen for me."

When I think back to the second half of 2016 and all of 2017, I am reminded of Danny Gokey's lyrics to his song, "Slow Down"

Oh, it's been a while since I felt I could breathe
I'm not running my life
No, it's running me

It was as if God physically stopped the freight train. See, I have this issue where I try and control so much of what goes on in my life, I try and save people from things that are going on in their lives, and I have a very difficult time letting any of those useless obligations go. And they are useless, let's be clear with that. I feel the more we try and control situations that are obviously out of our control, the more out of control we feel. We just need to sit back and let God (or the Universe - whatever you believe) do its job through us. When we allow ourselves to move in a more fluent way with the way our world is working, we will be able to adapt in an easier way to our situations.

Now let me make it clear that I love goal lists, to-do lists, vision boards, etc. What you focus on, you attract and so I think it is great to have a direction in which you desire to go and desire to direct your actions towards; however, it is also important to recognize when you are getting so attached to the control of that future that you lose sight of who you are. When you lose sight of who you are, you are losing control of those dreams and those goals behind the scenes. You don't even know it's happening until one day, most likely while driving or doing something mundane, you ask yourself, "Who the hell am I? What am I doing? And why am I doing this?"

That's why I decided to start this blog. I asked on my Facebook page yesterday, "Have you considered what your focus is going to be in 2018?" My personal focus in 2018 is going to be to learn who I am, what I love, what I don't like, and being true to those things. I have always been impressionable. I have always longed to belong, and so I always conform to my surroundings. Being different is scary to me; however, the entire time I'm being someone else, or trying to blend in it is as if my soul is screaming out tortured. At 33 years old, it's time to figure out who I am and the life that I desire to lead - not the life I think I should lead in an effort to blend in.

The goal of this particular blog, and the Facebook page that will accompany it is to promise positivity. A place you can go to scroll and find yourself inspired, re-invigorated, re-ignited, and brave enough to be whoever it is that you really are. Along the way, I hope to discover and share with you all who I really am and who I am choosing to be.

That said, feel free to follow and check back often! Follow me on Facebook, as well so that you can be promised positivity while mindlessly scrolling on that platform, as we all do. And until then - stay positive and remember: the real you will always provide the most shine.

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